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There is something so powerful in saying yes to God even though it’s one of your insecurities. I have just recently learned this over the last few weeks. There have been quite a few instances where God has called me into something that I want to fight, but that only brings anxiety. By saying yes to God I am opening my self up to peace, grace, redemption, freedom and so much more, whereas if I fight God then all I’m doing is giving the devil a foothold in my life.

In the middle of the day one of the team leaders informed the squad that we are to teach youth that night, so to be praying into if we were being called to speak. I instantly had a topic in mind. It was based off of an activity we did with a few of them the night before and their responses to the follow up questions. I ignored this thought and simply hoped and prayed that someone else on the squad would speak up and lead youth. 

So, I continued with my day, I taught English and played some card games with the amanaceres (youth). After the games fizzled out a bit I looked at one of my best friend in the squad and we just began talking about the youth service that night. We both were mentioning concerns about how it was going to go and wondering who was going to be sharing. She then made this comment, “it’s not that I don’t want to share, it’s that I don’t have anything from God to share.” Little did I know that the instant she said that I made face, a face that wouldn’t let me sit on the sideline. 

She never called me out on it, but as we continued to talk I calmly brought up the idea of putting something together, just in case nobody spoke up. As we worked together to come up with a lesion I knew that there was no way I was getting out of speaking. I was very invested in the lesion and it was hitting home for me and my life. I finally acknowledged and accepted (well still fighting but fully knowing I wasn’t getting out of it) the fact that I was going to be speaking in a few hours. 

Little did I know that as I was wrestling and fighting with God about sharing what had been on my heart recently, the team lead was preparing a lesson. She was wrestling with the fact that she knew she wasn’t supposed to speak, but didn’t think anybody else was going to be willing. The same moment that she expressed these frustrations with my team lead was the exact same moment I messaged her saying I would speak. 

God had both of us in his hand the whole time. He was working in me to say yes to what he was calling me into along with bringing peace to her heart. By me wrestling with God was only cause my heart to be more anxious. I wasn’t leaning into His presence and relying on His character to get me through; I was allowing fear to dictate my life (oddly enough I was speaking on the characteristics of God). 

Before youth had started I was talking with the friend that helped me write the lesson and through misunderstanding we had such Holy Spirit moment. She asked if she could pray for me and I grumbled cause I thought she had said “bravery.” After a few moments of confusions we figured out what had happened and realized that “bravery” was my word for the night. It was what God was giving me to fulfill His plan. 

The moment I started speaking and sharing I was met with a peaceful confidence and bravery. By saying yes to God and inviting Him into where I was, allowed me to be met with exactly what I needed in that moment. Speaking at youth is not something I enjoy because it brings out many of my insecurities. But by trusting God, all those insecurities I had, not having the right words to say, not thinking my words matter, being to young to share, etc. were met with His grace, peace, love, freedom, and so much more. 

“He gives power to the weak and strength to to powerless.” Isaiah 40:29

2 responses to “Just Say Yes”

  1. “Can I pray for you” does sound a lot like “bravery” hehe. How cool of the Lord to lay something so strong on your heart and speak through a slight miscommunication like that. You crushed it at the teaching and I hope there will be many more times you step into those intimidating moments!! You are soOOOooOo capable. VERY proud of u Sunny Girl

  2. We receive the greatest blessings when we say “yes” to God’s prompting and He will give us the strength, the courage, the peace in the situation. Trust Him to give you what you need in any moment in time! May God continue to bless you as you bless others in His Name!