One morning I was sitting on the steps outside our house talking on the phone. I was watching the neighbors go about their day, leaving to go to work, pulling in their laundry from the clothes line, running errands, etc. One of the neighbors leaves and comes back a few minutes with a stack of coffee in his hands. He walks over to me, hands me a coffee and candy bar, then walks inside. He said absolutely nothing and I just sit there with a confused look on my face and say thank you. It was so sweet and very kind! 

The day went on and I was irritated/frustrated, not knowing why. We did worship, Bible study, and hung out at the park, but still was very irritated. I couldn’t handle being at the park any longer so I walked home. I was talking to God and everything came flooding out, things I didn’t even know were there. I sat in my bed, messaged my friends about the man this morning and as soon as I hit send, thought “that was dumb, now I’m just bragging.” I thought about deleting the message but for some reason didn’t. My friends responded by saying “that’s a super sweet blessing” and then it clicked. 

All the times this year that I’ve felt like I haven’t done anything, really could have done something spectacular. This man had no idea if I even liked coffee, but he bought me one anyway. It was so kind and so out of the blue that it made me wonder if he knows Christ. The times I’ve done things that seem so small to me, or even only been able to give someone a smile, might have made people wonder if I know Christ, or even wonder what’s different. 

I have to leave it all up to God. All I can do is listen to Holy Spirit and His prompting and have faith that it was enough. I have to trust that God is going to use the littlest things to speak to people. He did with me, so why wouldn’t he with others. If I listen to Holy Spirit, then I have no room to doubt if it mattered. It was from God, so it’s going to be used. It’s not about seeing the results, but obeying and letting God show up.