As humans, we tend to only show the best parts of ourselves, the areas of our life we think we have together. It’s hard to let people in and share our weaknesses with those around us, but there is power in being vulnerable.
A few weeks ago the Lord placed this passage on my heart, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why i take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong” – 2 Corinthians 13.9-10.
In just about three and a half months, I am leaving the country, heading to Romania and ten other countries, then returning home eleven months later. I have no idea what is in store for this next season of my life. Everything has changed due to Covid, but honestly it just makes me more excited to see what God is going to do. This journey is the ultimate test of trusting God, but the journey doesn’t simply begin once I touch down in another country, the journey begins now.
Fundraising is tough for me. I don’t like asking people to donate, I don’t like the feeling of not being able to provide for myself, and relying on others. So, in order to be less vulnerable with others, I have been working more than full time in order to cover the costs myself, in need be. But after the weeks of being exhausted I have now come to understand that God is going to provide; the journey of missions starts with fundraising and gaining support from friends, family, and strangers, it happens through doing my part to the best of my ability without overworking myself, it begins with trusting God in the plan and process.
What God is teaching me now is a lesson that I need before my feet hit another country. God has called me to this mission and this journey and He is the one that will make sure it happens. I can’t get there alone, I can only get there with God’s help. I have to trust God and His process. I need to let go of my pride, my fear of failing, my want to control the process, and my life. It is through doing this and releasing it all to God that He will shine. In my weaknesses God will be illuminated. God let my life reflect who you are.
